I was born in Myanmar and came to America (NYC) at age 6. I also started drawing and writing poetry around that time. I feel very depressed and lonely because of being separated from my grandparents. I was always a very sensitive child who enjoys being around older people, listening to their stories, asking thoughtful questions and many other questions. I did not like to spend time with children my age. I think I have an old soul.
My sense of stability and security was suddenly taken away from me at age 6. I felt very lost and I did not belong at my new home. My anxiety grew as my ADHD and Dyslexia came out more when I started school. I knew I was different. I had a lot of trouble paying attention in class. I get bored very easily. I would often drift off daydreaming. I could not understand things like most children did. I was trying very hard but I didn't knew about my ADHD and Dyslexia. Now I understand that ADHD people and Dyslexics learn best visually and by using a hands on approach.
I felt very alone and disgusted at the world around me so I created my own, with my imagination through drawing and poetry.
I didn't know I have ADHD and Dyslexia until I became an adult. Doctors misdiagnosed me many times and put me on wrong medications that cause my ADHD to become worse. I had many bad life experiences (it can be in a book one day) that could have been prevented if I received the correct diagnosis.
I struggle a lot through school and I finished HS by home schooled. I spend 2 years at an academic setting for poetry and art. Otherwise, I am mainly self taught. My educational background includes Columbia and NYU.
IT IS ME
ADHD and Dyslexia will always be a part of me. There are many daily challenges that I still face. Tasks that are easy to most adults are very difficult for me. My brain processes information differently because it uses the right hemisphere more. For example, most people use the left side of the brain to read, but dyslexics use the right side. I have to read things 4 or 5 times to get it. If my brain cannot create a picture from the word, I'm stuck. Even with these struggles, I am still thankful for my ADHD and Dyslexia. Without them, I cannot create my poetry art.
ADHD and Dyslexia help me create art and poetry
ADHD and Dyslexia are considered to be "learning disabilities" by mainstream society when they are actually "learning differences."
ADHD stands for Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder. Actually, it is not a deficit in attention. People with ADHD pays attention to everything and have trouble filtering out stimulus in the environment. Dyslexia is having a difficulty with language processing.
The brains of people with ADHD and dyslexia are wired differently and we are no less than neurotypical people. It comes with a lot of positive traits. Some of them are high level of creativity, great problem solving skills, whole picture thinking, being able to notice patterns and see connections between unrelated things and being more empathetic towards others.
My poetry Art
My inspiration to create art and poetry came from having ADHD and Dyslexia. I feel very deeply, with passion and with all my heart. I think primarily in images and find patterns plus connections between unrelated things which helps with making new metaphors. My brain is like a camera that’s recording everything 360. I can manipulate objects in my brain easily, turn it around and see it in different angles. I think in 3D and this is an advantage for drawing but not for reading because words are 2D.
Since I have dyslexia and a very a short attention span, my poetry is short but I think it captures the whole picture. I want to share my world with people through my poetry art.
What I hope to accomplish through my poetry art
I hope my works will stimulate people's imagination and encourage people to be more considerate with each other. Our society is lacking empathy. We cannot deny the existence of anger, anxiety and social injustice but attacking each other aggressively through the use of art will not change things. It will only fuels more violence. There are better and beautiful ways to get people’s attention. We need to decrease all the simple and ugly expressions. Adults need to start thinking out of the box again and we need to protect children from losing their imagination.
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